Eliminating nursing before morning naps was not perfect, but it's okaaay. She usually screams awhile and then falls asleep. We're still nursing before afternoon nap and bedtime, and I cannot make up my mind which we will eliminate next. She's had some cow's milk mixed with breastmilk in a cup, and so far, so good. But in the middle of the night? Aw hell, it's Suck City.
First of all, she's just not a good self-soother. At ALL. So even though I had already cut G off on middle of the night feeds sometime around month eight, Katie was still getting to nurse until we started weaning. I KNOW, I KNOW. So she wakes up, and she hasn't the first clue how to get herself back to sleep. So I go in and try rocking her, patting her back, whatever, and she calms down, but the minute I try to leave, all hell breaks loose. She loses her frigging mind. Occasionally, she sleeps through the night, but when that happens, she wakes at 4:30am. And that's rare anyway, mostly it's the two hours in the middle of the night marathon. And you know, I was SO happy we skipped that stage when she was a newborn. Apparently it is required that all our children go through this phase? I am so not on board with this nonsense.
We ARE weaning. I am so ready. She may not be, but listen: I don't care. Yes, obviously, I DO. It is heartbreaking when it is clearly the only thing she wants in the whole wide world, and it is frustrating when I KNOW she would instantly calm and fall asleep if I would just nurse her, but I need- NEED-to be done with nursing this child.
Oh yeah, and apparently, she is going to be a year old tomorrow. LIES. Vicious lies. It was just a few months ago that I was sitting on the couch and complaining to my friend about the hideous Braxton-Hicks contractions I was having, as she rolled her eyes and suggested that I may want to consider that I was in labor. Either that, or five years ago. One of the two.